Poem

Dear You,

So in my Tumblring I've come across quite a few amazing poems, it's amazing how many talented poets there are in the world. While there are a million amazing ones, only a few have hit me quite as hard as this one...

I was in tears by the end, because I remember how difficult recovery was. 2 sides of my mind constantly battling between being healthy and being skinny. Because everyone likes the skinny girl, right? Even if the skinny girl hasn't eaten in 12 hours and can barely focus long enough to read a page. Even if the skinny girl can't sleep and can barely talk in the morning. Even if the skinny girl is in one of the worst times of her life, she can never gain weight. So the skinny girl wakes up, tortured, crying day in and day out because she wants to enjoy life so badly but can't because everyone expects her to be perfectly skinny. 

I will never forget that feeling and I don't want to because I remember, and that remembering pushes me onto better days. Days of enjoying a conversation over coffee with lots of milk and sugar in the morning with friends, of savoring my graduation cheesecake with all of my family talking and laughing for hours, of running through Target in my pajamas, on a midnight candy run with my little sister. There are things that taste better than skinny feels, if not for the taste then for the experience. Because I chose to be healthy, for myself and for everyone I care about, for the person I want to be. And that has made so much of a difference.

Have an Amazing Day

Mia B